weird

i was waiting for the train to go back home
and as the train was coming
i suddenly felt an urge to just take 2 steps forward
to find out how it will feel
imgs of me being hit, the feeling of my bones breaking
the reaction of the other passengers and the driver
it all flashed in my head
then i thought, "you would have to die to find out how it feels"

i fell asleep on the train
and halfway through
i suddenly woke up, and i forgot whether i was going to school or home
LOL
then i saw the direction the train is going
and remembered that i just went for lessons
so i fell back to sleep again

when i woke up, i had missed my stop

this is a weird journey back